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am staying up all night…no matter what happens…i’m going to keep these eyes of mine open until it’s 12 freakin’ am!!! i can do this…all for PHP 2,500.00!!! yes, I AM THAT DESPERATE!!! tomorow is my tito’s birthday. and he has this "gimmick" each year–a game actually, of who will be able to greet him first at the strike of 12. the winner gets a whopping 25hundred. last year it was, i think, a thousand. so tonight…everyone’s on a vigil. school/office night or not.

having nothing else to do, i find myself back here on this page, writing a blog, which doesnt have any direction. for the first time in my life i find myself lacking of things to talk about. someone once said, write about the things that you know. what do i know? hmmmm…i know that i miss my boi terribly, but that’s nothing new. i’m still in a job that i actually love doing. i got my friends, though i rarely get to see them. i’ve got this great, annoying and loud family. i’m still broke–also nothing quite surprising (banjo input: "who isn’t?!"). so what the heck should i write about?! don’t expect me to write anything about politics or the economy coz if that happens then wonder if money can really grow on trees.

ok, i got it! here it is. let’s talk about the future. let’s give out the age-old question to kids: "what do you want to be when you grow up?"

i used to want to be everything. because of this, i took up a lot of things while i was growing up. i learned to sing, found i was okay but only when im in a band or a group. i cant sing solo tho…have such a case of stagefright. took up a little ballet–found out my veins were actually running on ice–needless to say i was a little stiff, so no. I can’t dance. not that well at least. sure, i can bump and grind and swing my ass whichever way it chooses–coz, i found that it has a life of it’s own–but i can never really dance that well and that seriously. ask me to walk on broken glass, or eat fire or scrape my hair off my scalp, but never ask me to dance properly! i learned to swim, but i wasn’t too competitive about it. i learned how to play the guitar, but i can only play a few selected songs–and im a strummer not a plucker! (geez..that sounds weird…) what i loved doing tho, are playing basketball and drawing. i loved both so much so, that i took up fine arts in college, then got into the college varsity team.

now tho, i’ve grown up. and still i want to be a lot of things. i think the list actually increased even. now, add being a writer and a businesswoman. bottom line is, i want to be successful. in whatever it is that i finally decide to do in my life. (banjo input: "sigh…who doesnt?!") but to go deeper than that, what is it that i really want from life? i guess the childhood question does have it’s counterpart for adults. 

i’ll think about this part…mull it over for a week atleast! for now, i’d better get ready. i think they’re starting to form a line outside my tito’s bedroom…

I love this song so much! Heard it from a friend of mine who loves it just as much. pertains to most of my moments with my boi! miss him sooo, sooo much! Tho a lot of people (who know him) would pro’ly laugh their heads off when they read this, him being a star (yes, you jaa boy who’s reading this!). well, he’s MY star so come off it! hahaha! yeah, i know. sounds kinda corny for me too. funny what missing someone could do to you…clouds your mind. nevetheless, enjoy the song everyone!

Like A Star - Corinne Bailey Rae

Just like a star across my sky,
just like an angel off the page,
you have appeared to my life,
feel like I’ll never be the same,
just like a song in my heart,
just like oil on my hands,
Oh, I do love you

Still i wonder why it is,
I don’t argue like this,
with anyone but you,
we do it all the time,
blowing out my mind,

You’ve got this look i can’t describe,
you make me feel like I’m alive,
when everything else is au fait,
without a doubt you’re on my side,
heaven has been away too long,
can’t find the words to write this song of your love,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don’t argue like this,
with anyone but you,
we do it all the time,
blowing out my mind,

Now i have come to understand,
the way it is,
It’s not a secret anymore,
’cause we’ve been through that before,
from tonight I know that you’re the only one,
I’ve been confused and in the dark,
now I understand,
Yeah-yeah

Oooh……Ooohhhh..

I wonder why it is,
I don’t argue like this,
with anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
for anyone but you
we do it all the time,
blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,
just like an angel off the page,
you have appeared to my life,
feel like I’ll never be the same,
just like a song in my heart,
just like oil on my hands.